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But nowhere, nowhere's on our way
af // love penny lane
lyriquediscorde
It's my birthday.

It's a complicated day for me, but it is still that. My birthday.

I'm trying to carve out ways to make it mine again, to find the happy in it, to not get overwhelmed in the grief that still is attached.

This was once my late husband's birthday, and our anniversary. I wrote something about it, and to him, earlier here. But, I don't wish to write it all out again.
I'm trying to be okay, trying even to be happy.

It's my birthday.

It's a complicated day for me, but it is still that. My birthday.

I've gotten so many lovely notes and pictures and songs from people. I'm overwhelmed by the love in the best of ways. I'm so incredibly lucky to have such amazing people in my life.
I'm lucky to have music that I love, bands and artists to obsess over, books and TV shows to be a fan of, and crushes that make me feel like a giddy teenager again.
I'm lucky to have the best friends ever - old friends and new ones - and amazing kids.

I'm lucky to write, too. To love writing and to have allowed myself the space and time to write.
Writing is my art, and it keeps me sane(r). Well, writing and music.

Music really is my oxygen.

Oh, I posted the first part of my resurrected fic last night. I'm really enjoying writing it again, and being back with P and C again <3

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sending lots of hugs your way!xxx


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